butter yellow

so close, i believe

you're holding me now

in your hands

you'll never let me go

you'll never let me go

-worship song-

~('0')~

a downcast sky opened the morning. the melancholy is palpable like the very own emptiness i feel inside. there is no sun today, but, yellow was still in my mind. maybe it was because i was hoping to be cheered on this day. i guess it doesn't matter what i feel. what matters is that i can still feel. it doesn't matter if someone else cares. what matters is that i can still care. it doesn't matter what colors i see. what matters is that i can still see. and in this madly graying, fading light, i hope that the light within me has not been extinguished. for as yet, i need the light, even just a flicker of yellow... to guide me and see me through the gray... and maybe beyond the melancholy that i feel.